“you don’t need hearing aids” yes Mom correct. I can hear things. But can I understand them? Nope! Do I ask what you said more than 5 times, every sentence? Yep! Are hearing aids kinda covered by insurance? Yep! What am I gonna do in college? Huh?
I literally just want to get through life with the minimum amount of difficulty. Also my mom told me I didn’t need glasses. And thought I was lying. (Turns out I did need glasses, who would have thought? My eyes were so bad.)
why does my college’s disabilities office gotta be so extra. They’re using forms based off of DSM-IV. Which is weird in the first place to me. Then they require documentation which is understandable but also? Why isn’t everybody allowed to record lectures? Wouldn’t that be super helpful? Why? Not?
Anyways what I’m saying is, is that I’ve probably spent over $100 trying to get documentation. And if I want hearing aids I gotta get them before November because coverage for hearing aids stops after 18 🤷w h y
Then add on that the hearing aids themself are still thousands of dollars.
But the good part is if I’m approved I’m gonna be able to have live captioning (if needed) and being able to record my lectures. And maybe a livescribe pen. Wild stuff right there. Also my ESA was approved so hell yeah lit
I don’t know if they’re gonna try to stuff me into a single or not but if they do it’ll be fine I guess.
So I’m like 23 days post op now and here’s what I got: according to people I know I heal really well even though I don’t listen to my doctor’s orders. I’m super stubborn
My left side looks reeeeaaallly good. My right side is a little rough.
My nips are peeling and the incisions are looking good. I can take baths and go swimming now.
Also like I love the shooting pains in the incisions, and not being able to feel a 1 inch by 2 inch rectangle of skin on both sides of my chest.
Uhhh I know it’s only been like 3 weeks but I just kinda do whatever i want activity wise
So I’m like 23 days post op now and here’s what I got: according to people I know I heal really well even though I don’t listen to my doctor’s orders. I’m super stubborn 
My left side looks reeeeaaallly good. My right side is a little rough.
My nips are peeling and the incisions are looking good. I can take baths and go swimming now.
i dont hate pride as a general thing. but i can say now that i probably wont go until i can (legally) drink. it was just one thing after another today and then i acted like an ass to my boyfriend and i hate that. i hate that my mental health just plummeted because of three toxic people. i hate that it has such a big effect on my mood. i also didnt get much sleep yesterday and add two panic attacks and crying 3 times on top of it and we have the recipe for a great pride.
i just. ive been a big bitch today and i dont know how to make up for it.
My review of top surgery: weird parts of my chest have no feeling and that’s cool with me. Nipples are weird and they’re peeling. Like when you get sunburnt and the dead skin comes off. My doc wouldn’t take out tue drains on tuesday even though I’ve barely drained,,, which was annoying and now it’s thursday and barely 1cc comes out. UGH. Uhhhuhhh i barely took the medicine but when i did i was a big grumpy bitch because i just wanted to sleep but the world wanted to play 20 questions with me. I really just want the ace bandages off of my body because i can’t fuckin breathe,, but i cannot. I also really want to sleep on my stomach and side but I cannot. So uhhh that’s my review. It’s a pain in my ass now but like, it’ll get better. And it’s so so so so so worth it. Also my nana asked if it feels weird not having tits anymore and nope. It sure doesn’t feel weird, it feels right
Also exactly 1 (one) suture is poking my underarm and it’s driving me up the wall. And I’m so close to trying to wear my binder instead of the ace bandages because I’d like… to breathe?? And sleep??? While breathing????? I’d also like to do my t shot again,,, since I would have had to stop for like literally 5 weeks. Blegh
Now there are sutures on both side irritating my skin anD my drains are hurting. The audacity of this plastic tubing. I never.
Anyways I really want a shower because now it’s been a week without one. I also want a bath. With expensive lush products.
But like. ~brightside~ pride is next weekend and next week trans youth group meets and I’ll have my drains out but I’ll still be wearing bandages and shit during pride which kinda sucks 😦 (it really sucks because pride is hot and I’m a baby)
Tbh whenever I read about something like calculus being discovered I imagine a group of explorers investigating a cave and finding a giant tome of a textbook titled “calculus: everything u need to know”
It cracks me up everytime
I figured out what dating meant to my mom
It means the guy has to take out the girl so he can show that he has money and can provide
And I’m like that’s fucked up most people in my grade are 15
We don’t even have jobs how the hell are we supposed go provide
That’s fucked up
cufos yeah thank u that’s a good idea
How am I gonna do the boys? Any suggestions peeps
Does anyone have any trans fact sheets that would help raise awareness of trans problems
They would be taped to the walls of my high school btw
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